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senyum, senyum senyum. makin hari makin seronok. seronok jd Muslim ni. dulu kala kini berbeza, hari ini dalam kepale yang pasti nk berpaksi to Him. i am not up to date. i dont dress to impress, but i love dressing up.(erk, depends on mood, biasenye mls sgt teramat sgt) i listen to music but i dont play music. i dont do flips, but i lov seeing others do :) i dont swim and dive to the end of sea, but i float like water lily and spread my arms like a free,. fish. -_-' i used to decide my days by my heart. ikot kepale sendiri and ikot my own desires. masok university, semua nya lari dari kebiasaan. kalau dulu have fun, study second choice. lepak lari lompat semuanya suka. hidup dulu pn takde la suka sgt. takdelah seronok sgt. tapi yg pasti live like a king. living rare and definitely rare. even if i recall my memories, i praised to Him of what i am today. i dont know who i am. i dont belong to anybody. i am out of the crowd. and all i know i want to die as a good person. being a good person. and act as a good person. and if u dont find me in jannah. pls pls pls ask for me. i cant bear of the thoughts being in neraka!

20

alhamdullilah, alhamdullilah alhamdullilah. this time i am back home. and everything look different. i am 20. the age make no difference to me. okay, that is not the truth. 20 do brings some changes. i dont drool over some One Direction anymore like what i might used to be obsessed when i was younger :P haha but dad and mom look drench, sister dh ade anak sorang. dh pndai berleter. marah2 -_-' abg working! dude, even he looks like a abang now. haha abg ipar, very matured also now days.and my cousins, evrybody is getting pregnant! and married. ya Allah. so fast, time flies. TIME IS SO SHORT.ramadhan is already 3days here in Malaysia. and i am looking forward to every inch of the barakah month ! lets us all set our priority. LaLALA~~ lets kejar terawih, the only ibadat that specially available during ramadhan. lets have puasa, iftar, tahan nafs, say good words, look at good things, thinking great things, so this is as our starting for forever being better PREACHERS~~better muslims :) May He ease us and make us among the people He favor most, amin.

july

...tulis itu bagos, tapi jika tidak membawa kebaikan, membawa keaiban, lupakan tulisan itu...

secs

drawing lines. it is ourselves that allow who is in of our life, and maybe ourselves allowing who is out! grab your chances, being the best to the family, 'friendly' , give your best 'shoo' in your work, and make home as 'homey' as possible. and being a good Muslim like a real mujahidah with the shahadah :) my 11th dimension. is getting scarier -_-' expressing so much thoughts in writing definitely make me feel i have future in writing haha.whatever, smiling is good, wana try some?? should try some thou! should try lots in fact. should never stop trying."it is better to die trying then to die of nothing!" salam aleik :))

pussy

okayyy. i have become such a pussy. dh evryday rse nk update blog ni. adoii. and evry little thing pn jd sensitive. so anybody feeling mellow like me now, get out! get out from the house, find something else to attract your attention, look at the sky ke, traffic light ke, or even just breath and walk randomly. but unfortunate to tell you, i cant do all that now, cause i have my final exam. so i have to clear my thoughts,wait, no i need to sudy but fist i need to clear my thoughts, listen to this, trust me, so much better and better than Kurt Cobain or Rod Stewart melodramatic melody! ;P http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzG6fwHV0TE

tart

"When u have everything & ppl u love love u back, that's Reality. When u have nothing & they still love u, that's Sincerity. "quoted by amanda somebody somebody from tweeter =) credit to u :D

i know i should stop assuming, maybe i should confront, or a least ask. but do i have the guts? i dont think so i do. friends are like bees, sometimes some remain as trees, that shading us in days, some just bustling and craze, but out all of the face, someone could be the fave, the one we be lazed, or chased, what i am trying to say might be overrated, but karma just knock me down, when i loss u, i lost half of me, how hard i tried, i could never be believed again, that we were sincerely being with each other, maybe we being pleasing each other, out of all the people,sadly say, weeping days, i could never say, i miss yaa, babe! kadang kadang rasa itu hadir, niat bukan ingin melahir, Tuhan Maha Pengasih, mahu terbaik, baik untuk kite, so macam macam yang tak tak ter-sangka jadinya,haha incidents are never accidents! have faith, have trust. believe in His plans.walau kadang kala muka ketat, dont worry, i only had tarts for breakfast!tu la sebabnye :P salam aleikom :)

lapuk

Sting & Phil Collins - Every Breath You Take (Live Aid 1985)



this is what i call real music, no autotune, no stupid repetition, just beautiful melody that touch your hearing sense. look at the crowd,huge, i used to have the craving to join this kind of event, somehow horrible experiences i experienced, where beverage and social figures compensate the musical event. i decided utube pn ok je, tak payah live sgt lahh. ths one of the event that charity was their main objective. only if i can create the same crowd with a more barakah event to help those in need, best gile ! well, enjoy. salam aleik :)

errors

errors: space fillers and salsa dance, today we finally wrapped our presentation course! hell yeah :D lega satu dh settle, it was fun actually. presentation is a skilful and interesting adrenaline rush experience that eventually turn out just okay later. so regarding the space fillers, most of us are required to practise AHH EHHH OUHHH ERMMM for quiet a while because when we presenting we have the tendency to stay blank on our own words and filled PERIODIC TIME with those AHHH EHHH ERMMM.one of the remedies to overcome was to practise humming thoses lots of time and at prolonged of time.advisable, bile mandi under shower( if the person mandi quiet a long time) or anytime for about 1 hour? therefore, resultnya our body subconsciously adapt and give an idea to our brain not to do the action during we presenting. also, the same method on salsa dance. we perform salsa as part of our presentation and that is not awesome k everybody. salsa dance on health care? tolong lah, mmg x ngam sangat,therefore, practise salsa for one hour, record it, and look at it with patience to acknowledge either u have a future in salsa onot ??! and if u have, maybe dentistry is a little bit dull for us :) so SUBCONSCIOUS understanding is very very important, it plays many roles in shaping us. my mom tells me lots of time to rajin berdhikr, berzikir? berdhikr as if repetition SUBHANALLAH, ALHAMDULLILAH ALLAHU AKBAR ASTAGHFIRULLAH lots lots lots of time. subhanallah, such a teaching, it is a way of moulding our tongue to subconsciously remember Allah all the time! Allah the creator, the wiser, the best Helper. remembrance of Him will be easier insyaAllah,lets practise this together ! salam aleikom :)

kritis

Tekadkan hati, luruskan pandangan. mahu dirapati, iman diketepi, mahu disenangi, entertainment didalami, hati mnjadi kering, sakitnya jatuh lagi, semua kawan pn lari, kini hanyu ku meratapi, syurga yang ingin diduduki, tanpa henti this is my story. selagi nafas tak terhenti, perit mahupun ditangisi, be a real muslim tetap dicari cari. ya Allah yang Maha Pemberi, ampuni dosa kami yang lemah ini, kuatkan semangat kami hari hari, harap Call Me maybe, is not what i am busy memorising, or looking at somebody, and remaining drooling! all is pleasure, pleasure is all,better to crawl, then being halt, halt not from all.just yet, from your own heart. my name is Siti, bukan nak kate jauhi duaniwi, more like gunakan dunia ini, untuk kepentingan diri, takot esok kita mati, dunia di kerjari, akhirat menanti,lalainya kite ini, semua jauh dari His Mercy. kuatkan jati diri, utubing the right things, speaking good dings, be a pumpkin, and also a munchkin, of a better human being.

insyaAllah we do this easily. keep on hoping.and 'doa'ing. make sure one thing, niat within, as seem, He is seeing :)

enough

Allah SWT is enough and sufficient. i have forgotten this meaning, i remember but i forgot. recently, posting many negative attitudes and thinking of having holiday,(immature, short holiday this sem pun bising lebih -_-') i fail myself, fail to stay faith to Him. mulut cakap sabar, hati kate tenang, muke senyum senyum tapi ya Allah, x payah kate lahh, habis semua bnde tak kena. bace buku tak masuk otak, tidur x lena and lazinesss bertingkat tingkat. just a friendly reminder to myself also, whatever you do, the most sufficient deeds are the one for Him, bcos He is all sufficient to us! have a look, May He ease our days, forgive us and firm us to His deen :)

think

(SILA BACA DALAM SATU NAFAS)

think big 'dead meat' sometimes we like to take things easy thinking big and put evrything together probably too organise but the one fails to plan, plan to fail and i am doomed when he was saying what dreams and blablabla i know i am a dead meat not very inspired lately obviously but just to share the experience we should be productive know what we want grab chances i said something on short term, to have awesome holiday, pergi Sarawak, makan2, main2 gelak2, sbb dlm otak mmg exhausted sgt, tak bole nk piki very intelligent things anymore and i end up doing the long term focus on attracting ppl to real muslim way of life you know the part living as muslim and practising not just by saying sort of i realize when i did the presentation i skip the mission hoping he wont care much but he saw it and when he ask what should i do i was tongue tied cause i dont want to do anything i dont want to commit i just dont feel like walk the talk i just want to sleeppp! hell it was a drag project dont be like me! one of me out of zillions foetus dh cukup ok! peace out, writing piece of thoughts that by hoping the truth side will at least bring disgust to ppl and be more productive than me! salam aleik.